My Broken Heart

I did three things yesterday I never thought I would do.... 

  • Screamed at my husband to let me give up. 
  • Reflected on how painful the Holiday season has become in the past 3 years.   
  • Deleted my Facebook account. 
Maybe one day I will be able to share what drove me to the point of throwing in the towel.... today is not that day though. 

I just want to thank those who gave me words of encouragement throughout our journey. I suppose I should thank those who drove me to insanity and tears over their insensitive, unfiltered comments too. So thanks to everyone. I appreciate the prayers, thoughts, and hugs. 

The. End. 


  1. Hugs for you!! xoxo Sorry you had such a bad day

    1. Thank you so much! I've dusted myself off and am ready for the next bump in the road now!

  2. Dear Poppa God,
    I don't know this woman. In fact, I know very little about her, but you are such an intimate God and you know every detail of her life. You know her so intimately that you have counted every hair on her head. Even this morning as she was brushing it and more strands fell out, you recounted. You know the pain she is feeling and the hope she has lost. You know the hurts she has hidden in her heart and you hear her cries for a miracle baby. Every tear that has been shed you have caught in your hand. I pray on her behalf that you restore her hope and renew her strength to keep fighting the enemy. Matthew 7:7 says that we must keep asking, keep seeking, and keep knocking. So for her, I am asking, seeking and knocking. In Exodus 17:12, Moses' friends held up his hands because he was too tired and weak to continue. She is too tired and weak and I am wanting to hold up her hands by offering my prayers on her behalf. Show yourself strong to her as I pray Romans 15:13 over her life today. I pray that You, who are the God of hope, fill her with all joy and peace as she trusts in You, so that she may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit. Amen

    Hugs to you!

    1. Thank you for this beautiful prayer. I almost didn't know how to ask God for the strength and hope to carry on, but you seem to have found the words. You and Caroline are such strong inspirations to me. I'm thankful God has placed both of you in my path. Thank you so much.

    2. anytime you need anything just send me a quick email at 10hopeingod@gmail.com. I have an infertility support group at my home every Thursday night and if you ever need us to pray for a specific request just let me know.