1.21.2014

We're Totally Kicking Some Knees!

I wish it was acceptable for me to jump up and down or run circles around the block right now. 


GOD. IS. GREAT. 

I should probably preface this with a confession. We have been patients at Nashville Fertility Clinic since November. There. I said it.  We have kept it a secret, but in the past week I had a fall apart and needed some extra prayers sent up on my behalf. As a result, I had to admit what we had been keeping quiet for the past two months. Don't ask questions. I'm not fully ready to discuss every aspect of our treatment with NFC yet. *Key phrase: I'M NOT READY TO DISCUSS IT. PLEASE DON'T ASK...YET.*

Shew. Now that we've addressed that, let's move on to the cause of my sudden desire to jump up and down! Shall we? I didn't make a New Year's Resolution this year; however, I did completely surrender every negative, irrational thought to God. I quit "preparing myself" for things to go wrong. Instead I started looking for the silver lining in every test result, diagnosis, and bump in the road. I'm believing things are about to get better! I had a nice, long chat with God on January 1st. My husband and I were so hesitant about where to go from here. I was more hesitant than him since I'm clearly the weakest link in this crazy journey... so we turned everything over to God. We asked Him to lead us wherever we needed to go. Personally I prayed for God to show me a sign that this was what we needed to do. I laid out all of my worries, all of my hesitations, everything. I laid it all out there. I told God I was scared. I told God I needed some sort of a sign.  

On January 16th, as I started my car, I cried the happiest tears ever. I had peace. I had relief. I had a new attitude. I'm about to kick infertility in the knee. I refuse to let infertility define me or consume my being. God has put his fingerprints on everything. Every phone call I receive, every piece of good news, every sweet call from my nurse.... it is God. He's a sneaky fella sometimes, but I know He is all over this! Piece by piece everything is falling into place. He has taken my three biggest hesitations and worries and shown me, "Yes Kari, in fact you can do this!" AHHHH.... I want to cry as I type those words. Yes. I can do this! 

Ohhhhh infertility isn't going to know what hit it when I get through! I am believing our miracle(s) is/are coming soon! I can just feel it. I know God has this completely under control.  He is putting the pieces to this beautiful puzzle together just the way He sees fit. It's a beautiful thing! 


Stay tuned. . .  

6 comments:

  1. Hi there, just wanted to tell you, after reading this post,being positive is going to change you tremendosly. It is all about attitude, it will make a huge difference in how you take on infertility. Good luck to you! I can tell you from experience that telling my story and being completely honest and even a little graphic at times has helped me tremendously. People will reach out to you there is a huge community of couples going thru this and we all support each other. Good luck to you!

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    1. Thank you for your encouraging comment! I'm really liking this whole staying positive thing. It really is all about attitude and how you look at the situation. Unfortunately, it has taken me longer than it should have to come to this conclusion! It really is encouraging read other women's stories and journeys. It really does feel like we are all going through this together! Thanks so much.

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    1. Well that explains why nobody ever replies to me! Lol

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  3. Love your positive attitude! I think good things are on the horizon for you.

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    1. Thank you for stopping by Jessah! This positive attitude is not something that has come easy to me. I have had to REALLY pray and work hard to stay positive. I appreciate your comment! :)

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