tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-62590906681401657452024-03-12T20:37:44.752-07:00Dear Baby Bell: Our Journey to Bring Home Baby BellKari B.http://www.blogger.com/profile/01964189743590493731noreply@blogger.comBlogger121125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6259090668140165745.post-51773191666925166832016-02-17T15:44:00.000-08:002016-02-17T15:44:48.191-08:00Moving! <div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: large;">I am so excited to announce <a href="http://www.dearbabybell.com/">Dear Baby Bell</a> is moving to www.dearbabybell.com. Please join me as I continue to share my thoughts, adventures with twins, and surviving my early 30s. </span>Kari B.http://www.blogger.com/profile/01964189743590493731noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6259090668140165745.post-23601696444080292582016-02-11T11:23:00.001-08:002016-02-11T11:23:30.658-08:00Finding Comfort in the Uncomfortable<div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif;">Thanks to the crazy Tennessee weather (and a couple toddler tantrums), I missed my regular Wednesday night prayer meeting with some amazing ladies. Have no fear. I spent time in prayer and studying yesterday, so I'm here now to share my reflections! Grab a seat. Have some coffee. Whatever. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif;">Take the word "we" out for a second. What do <b style="font-style: italic;">I </b>miss when<i> </i><b style="font-style: italic;">I </b>hide within <i style="font-weight: bold;">my </i>comfort zone? Personally, I feel like I have missed out on relationships! I'm so guilty of not reaching out to people from time to time who might need a little boost because... well... it might require me to *gasp* talk to a stranger. This is not something new. I've been a little on the shy side for as long as I can remember. Once I get to know someone, and I'm comfortable around them, I open up. I'm a sealed little mystery until then though. With age, I've slowly begun to push myself outside of my own limits. I'm not moving mountains by any means, but I'm definitely working on it!</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif;">When I'm stuck in my comfort zone (a.k.a my own little, peaceful, drama free world), am I missing the fullness of God? YES! God wants me to be comfortable being uncomfortable! I have to step outside of my little box and have faith in God. I realize this comes easier for some than others. That's what makes this world a beautiful place though! If we were all the same, what fun would that be? If we all lived in the same little comfortable box, how could we really accomplish what God wants us to accomplish? We wouldn't! We would all be stuck in own little comfortable worlds. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif;">When I decided to write about our infertility journey, I was absolutely terrified. When I hit the publish button on that super long post in 2013, my heart sank. I had prayed over it for several days and finally just took the leap. I was uncomfortable, but at the same time I had high hopes somewhere, somehow someone would read my words and it would be an encouragement one day. After that first post, the future posts became easier. It wasn't always rainbows and sunshine though. I did hit a few bumps along the way, but in the end I felt like I was being called to share my story. I realize what I did is not something everyone feels called to do! I'm not saying we should all air our personal business online. I am saying sometimes we feel called to do things we wouldn't necessarily think we would do. In my case, sharing all of my reproductive issues with family, friends, and strangers was what I felt I needed to do at the time. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif;">Here I am today. I've been tossing a few ideas around for where I want my blog to go and how I want to continue. I have a very special place in my heart for women who are faced with an infertility journey, women who are dealing with pregnancy loss, and just women who just need someone to be real with! [waving hello] With that being said, I am so patiently waiting for God to show me where to go from here. I have been feeling a tiny little tug at my heart lately to start a prayer group specifically for these special women in my life. Nothing fancy. Just a little group who gathers together once a month or so just to pray with and for each other. I SO badly wanted to be a part of something like this when I was struggling along my own journey, but I never knew how, where, or when to get the ball rolling. Doing something like this will be a bit out of my comfort zone. I feel a little anxious just typing all of this out, but... but... but if we all stick with what we are comfortable with and what makes us always feel warm and fuzzy, how can we experience the fullness of God's plan for our lives? </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif;"><b>If you never step outside of the box, how can you ever really see the big picture? </b>It isn't about me. It isn't about you. It is all about God. What does God want you to do? How can you use your life, your journey, your experience to help someone see God's greatness? </span><br />
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Kari B.http://www.blogger.com/profile/01964189743590493731noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6259090668140165745.post-6107455523132010932016-02-09T13:28:00.002-08:002016-02-09T13:28:14.254-08:00I'll Hold You Tighter Today... and Always<div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif;">I sat in a very familiar waiting room yesterday waiting for my name to be called. I've sat in that waiting room before as I held back tears of disappointment. My husband and I sat in that waiting room numerous times when we were pregnant with R&A. Yesterday I was surrounded by few women who were sitting with what I would assume to be their mothers... maybe? Perhaps they were future grandmothers waiting to sneak a peek at their little grandchild? I noticed a few college-age young ladies scrolling through their phones too. Then there was me... </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif;">I was there for a follow up appointment for some postpartum issues. After I told the nurse about how much better I had been feeling mentally and emotionally thanks to some new coping methods and a bit of medication, I began telling her about my periods and how terrible they had become. If you have followed my journey for very long, you know I do not have a regular period. When I do have a period, it is typically very painful, heavy, and miserable. I had high hopes some lifestyle changes (regular exercise and some dietary changes) would help alleviate the symptoms, but after several months... it just wasn't working. When my doctor came in, I knew what we were about to discuss, but I silently prayed I was wrong. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif;">With my history, I knew this would come up. </span><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif;">I have struggled with heavy, irregular, painful periods for almost 20 years. </span><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif;"> I KNEW eventually I would have to have this discussion. I have been tremendously blessed with three amazing children. My womb brought three miracle babies into this world. Now we are faced with the reality that I will not be carrying anymore babies in my womb. At the age of 30, I sat in a room and heard the word "hysterectomy". I have joked with my mom for several years and said, "I wish someone would just take all of this out since it doesn't work right anyway." I was joking though. Now that I know I'm so close to that happening, it isn't funny. I'm 30. I.AM.30. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif;">My doctor did give another option before we go to the extreme of a hysterectomy though. He suggested an <a href="http://www.webmd.com/women/endometrial-ablation-16200">endometrial ablation</a>. He also said he will go in laparoscopically</span><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif;"> (again) to clean up any </span><a href="http://www.webmd.com/women/endometriosis/" style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">endometriosis</a><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif;">. There is a possibility I may have some fibroids causing some issues as well, so he feels these procedures will help. He was very straight forward when he told me this might not fix it. He said it will at least buy me a few more years before a hysterectomy though. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif;">I did not write this in hopes someone would offer me sympathy and say, "Oh poor Kari." Listen. I am a little overwhelmed by the fact I am facing this, but at the same time I am so thankful I was able to give my husband two beautiful babies. We both prayed and remained hopeful we would bring a child into this world. After a long, trying journey...We did. We were blessed with two at once. My reproductive organs do not function the way they should. In the bigger picture, I know taking care of this NOW will help me be a better mom and wife in the long run. It will be rough in the beginning for sure, but I am looking forward to living a life without heavy, painful periods. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif;">I'll leave you with this photo of my three little miracles. . . I'm squeezing them a little tighter this week. I know I beat all odds thanks to God and His amazing plan. God is so good and I pray He will be with us as we face what's next for me. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif;">To read about my last surgery <a href="http://www.bethkari.blogspot.com/2013/11/the-doors-have-opened.html">here.</a></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">I'm a worrier. Surprise. Surprise, right? </span><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">Last night in my Ladies' Prayer Group, we discussed the topic of worry and how God has called us NOT to worry. After reading through Matthew 6:25-34, I felt a slight sense of guilt. I feel like since becoming a mother almost 13 years ago, I have worried more. As the years have gone by, my worries have evolved and shifted. In the beginning I was worried I would not be a good enough mother to Gavin. As he got older, I worried for his safety. Now I worry about the world all three of my children are growing up in. I worry about if I'm teaching Gavin the things he will need to know when he moves out on his own one day. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">We are called NOT to worry though. So why do I worry about my children so much? Last night, I mentioned Ryker and his lack of fear. Ryker doesn't worry about anything. He will climb on top of an end table or try to jump off of the couch. He runs as fast as he can through all of the toys in the living room with no fear of falling. Ryker does not worry. Ryker is a child... a child who knows no matter what happens, Mommy or Daddy will kiss his boo-boo and "fix it". This is what God wants us to understand! There is no reason for us to worry. He will be there. He has it under control. "Can any one of [us] add a single hour to [our] lives by worrying?' (Matt 6:27). No. The key is to have faith that God is in control of a situation. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">In Matthew 6:34, we are called to "not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own." What do we accomplish by worrying about tomorrow? Personally, I accomplish absolutely nothing. It is a waste of my precious time for me to worry about things I have absolutely no control over. I still find myself worrying though. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">It is no surprise I feel stretched very thin from time to time. Between keeping up with the twins, maintaining a household, being a wife, and co-parenting a preteen I wear many hats and have many important jobs. Right now, my heart is so consumed by my worry for Gavin and our relationship. He is at an age where I have to start letting go and allowing him to fail on his own. I cannot hover as much as I have in the past. If I want him to grow into a responsible adult, I have to start letting go. I have tried so hard to just cover him in prayer for the last few months. It might just be a phase, but I honestly feel like I'm losing him. I feel like my time with him is so so precious; however, he is at the age where he can decide what he wants to do (within reason). I worry he will resent me one day. I worry he and I will not have a very close relationship. I worry he will decide he wants to live with his dad permanently.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">This week, I am praying for God to just take those worries away. I pray He will help me face the challenges I have ahead of me as I try to co-parent Gavin. I pray He will give me the strength and understanding to accept the things I have no control over. </span><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">Amen. </span>Kari B.http://www.blogger.com/profile/01964189743590493731noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6259090668140165745.post-30776371076863172402016-01-27T13:26:00.000-08:002016-01-27T13:26:10.998-08:00Toddler Time & Snow Storm 2016 <span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif;"><br /></span>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif;">If there is one thing I wasn't prepared for, it is this : TWO BABIES LEARNING TO WALK AT THE SAME TIME. They don't walk in the same direction. They don't walk the same speed. They defiantly do not want to hold my hand as I lead them away from whatever they are currently trying to <strike>destroy</strike> play with. Obviously I knew they would sprout some confidence and take off one day, but I didn't realize I would blink and that day would be here so quickly. It is here though. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif;">They are also starting to talk. Of course 90% of the time I'm the only person who knows what they are trying to say. The other 10% of the time I think they are talking in their odd twin lingo. Ryker loves to say "ba" for ball. He says "tak-ku" for thank you, and "mik" for milk. Averlee talks about "cat", "bite", and "momma" on the regular. </span><br />
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She stood up, put her hands in the air, grinned ear to ear, and took her wobbly first steps. It was beautiful. It made me tear up. I was so very proud of her! </div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><br></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;">I've never been one to make New Year Resolutions, but in an effort to organize my life and manage my anxiety, I decided this might be the year to make a few resolutions. One is to work on my own health and fitness (typical resolution... *blah blah*). The other is to live more in the moment and not let myself get caught up in the stress. </div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><br></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;">I wouldn't say I've taken my time at home with the twins for granted, but I will say I've had a hard time shutting off my "working mommy" brain. I began working when I was 17 shortly after I discovered I would become a mom. I was in college and working until Gavin was 4 years old. Then, I began working full time. Those pay checks were so nice, but I was missing out on so much. I missed school functions. I was late for ballgames. I didn't get to help him with homework or stay home with him when he was sick. I felt so much guilt for missing out and not being present as a mother. I was doing what I had to do to pay off my student loans and save for his college though. I was doing my best. </div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><br></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;">When Trey and I got married, I quit my great paying job so I could transition into a less demanding work schedule closer to home. No more hour commute. No more business trips out of town. No more meeting clients or co-workers to discuss business over dinner and drinks. It felt like a great move for our family and future kid(s). </div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><br></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;">The moment Trey and I decided we wanted to have a child, we also decided it would be best for me to say home with him or her. As you know, it took us longer than we had planned to have a child. This made staying home even more important to me. I didn't want to miss out on all of the firsts! When we found out we were expecting twins, there was no question I would need to stay home! Daycare for two infants would be my entire paycheck! So the decision was easy... I would be a stay at home mom. Easy right? </div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><br></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;">I love staying home with my twins and having the freedom to be there for Gavin when he has a school or sports event..... BUT.... For several months I struggled with not feeling like I had a purpose. I felt like a good day was defined by me taking a shower AND washing my hair. I constantly had family telling me I needed to "get away" from my kids and go do something else for a day each week. I felt like I wasn't making a difference. Sure. My kids were happy and healthy, but I always had someone chirping in my ear about things I "should do" or pushing me to leave my kids a few days a week. I felt like I wasn't a good enough stay at home mom. </div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><br></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;">It is also important for me to note... I struggled silently with postpartum depression and anxiety for 10 months. I kick myself daily for not reaching out to my doctor for help sooner, but it is what it is. Honestly, it robbed me of a lot of joy. I reached a point where I wanted to completely isolate myself because being around others stressed me out. I'm doing much better now thanks to support from my doctor, friends, my mom, and my husband. </div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><br></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;">So for 2016, I'm wiping my slate clean. I'm doing what I need to do to grow my relationship with my husband. I'm working on living in the moment and not worrying about what others around me think I should be doing. I spent so much of the twins first year feeling like I had to prove something. I felt so much pressure from others for me to go against what I was comfortable with. I felt like I had to prove that I COULD do this since I had so many people tell me I wouldn't be able to handle the twins by myself each day. I can. I plan to live in today and handle what is thrown at me... And enjoy each moment. This is MY job. I have 3 kiddos who depend on me, love me, and NEED me. I don't have to prove anything. I'm good enough. I'm doing the best I can. I'm loving my life and enjoying each day. This life is pretty amazing. Hectic and amazing. </div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><br></div>Kari B.http://www.blogger.com/profile/01964189743590493731noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6259090668140165745.post-77961873359271050352016-01-03T13:07:00.000-08:002016-01-03T13:07:06.500-08:00Twin Adventures - 13 Month Installment <span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Ryker and Averlee are 13 months old today! Do people say that? Or is it safe for me to just say, "They are 1" and leave it at that? Eh. They are 13 months. I must say, this is a FUN age, but it has also been a challenging age!</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Ryker is training for his first baby marathon I believe. He has two speeds. Sleeping and Running. There is nothing in between. He's either knocked out or he's running full speed ahead. He's still eating anything and everything we put in front of him. He has a total of 6 teeth (2 bottom and 4 top). He moved into his own room two nights ago. He loves to play with a ball, his bulldozer, his big brother, and his puppy, Harper. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Averlee is still trying to decide if she wants to walk soon or not. I'm completely ok with her crawling for a little while longer since it is easier for me to chase Ryker if I'm carrying her versus chasing them both. I have a feeling she is about to take off though. She is such a picky eater! We still have to give her jar baby food from time to time because she refuses to cooperate when it comes to eating table foods sometimes. Typical girl. She loves to play with her tea pot, tea cups, and baby doll. She has even decided she can tolerate a small bow in her hair from time to time. *Score!* Averlee has 5 teeth (2 bottom and 3 top). </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">As for me... I'm surviving. I've learned to just roll with the punches. There will be a day when I will be caught up on laundry. I will shower daily. My hair will not be in a messy bun. I will be able to read a book. I will have complete conversations with fellow adults. That day will not be today though. or tomorrow. or anytime in the next 4 years. I've learned WHEN to wave my little white flag and call my mom. I've allowed myself to admit when I need a break and it is completely ok for me to say, "I need a minute or 60 to myself". I went through a time where I felt so guilty for wanting some time by myself, but I now have no problem telling my husband he needs to handle things for a little while so I can take a breather. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">This is an adventure for sure. It is challenging. It is exhausting at times. It is rewarding. It is literally a dream come true. </span>Kari B.http://www.blogger.com/profile/01964189743590493731noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6259090668140165745.post-57431347400603564432015-12-08T08:11:00.000-08:002015-12-08T08:11:21.469-08:00Holding Hope Close to Your Heart<div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif;">Today as I was doing a little reading, *Yes. I had a moment to read while I was drinking my coffee!* I came across a quote I had highlighted in a book a few years ago. "You are not lost to God. He sees your struggle, He knows your heartache, and He longs to bless the seed of hope He planted in your heart." The author of the book goes on to say, "You are already pregnant with hope. That hope is a gift from the God who loves you and who longs to bless you beyond what you can ask or imagine." (quote from <i><a href="http://www.amazon.com/Pregnant-Hope-Good-Infertile-Couples/dp/144213738X/ref=sr_1_1?s=books&ie=UTF8&qid=1449588575&sr=1-1&keywords=pregnant+with+hope">Pregnant With Hope: Good News For Infertile Couples</a>)</i></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif;">In the middle of our infertility journey, I probably read this quote through squinted, tear-filled eyes. I knew in my mind this was true, but I was having such a hard time holding onto this truth in my heart. It is hard to see outside of the tiny infertility box sometimes. Your vision gets a little cloudy and your heart becomes guarded. You try not to become too hopeful because it hurts. It was hard for me to see beyond the heartache. I even reached a point where I just didn't know HOW to pray anymore. I felt like I had given God everything, but really I was still struggling to stay hopeful month after month. I'm not an expert, but I feel like it is safe to say this is common among the couples who struggle with infertility. Am I right? </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif;">I'm on the other side of this now. In April of 2014, our infertility journey became a pregnancy journey. I now have twins who turned one last week. As I read through my journals and blog posts from our journey, I can still feel the pain in my words. The heartache and loss of hope are too familiar to me. I can look back on it now and see how that time in my life was falling apart so God could mold something much bigger than I had ever imagined. I see that NOW, but two years ago I couldn't see that. I knew what I needed to believe. I knew where I needed to place my hope, but in the middle of our journey, I struggled tremendously with holding hope in my heart. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif;">This morning, I sang "Happy Birthday" to each of my babies. They ate breakfast together, drank their juice (their very very watered down juice), and I told them the story of the day they were born. Every year I tell Gavin the story of the day he was born, so I guess this is just one of my weird mom traditions? Maybe so. Needless to say, R&A were not thrilled with their birth story. Ha. I have high hopes they will enjoy the story when they are older. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif;">After we wrapped up the mushy birth story phase of the celebration, I took them out of their high chairs and just watched them play together. I'm so grateful I have been here for them everyday since the day they were born. I've witnessed all of their firsts, kissed their boo-boos, and filled their tummies. I've held them when they were sick. I've rocked them when they couldn't sleep. I've laughed with them to the point of tears. This year has been hard, stressful, and a complete whirlwind. There are parts I would be okay with never revisiting. There are other parts I wish I could relive every single day of my life. With that being said, I'm forever grateful. This is all I ever hoped and dreamed of... and more. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif;">If you missed their birth story, you can find Part 1 <a href="http://www.bethkari.blogspot.com/2014/12/happy-birthday-to-ryker-and-averlee.html">here.</a> and Part 2 <a href="http://www.bethkari.blogspot.com/2014/12/happy-birthday-to-ryker-and-averlee_23.html">here. </a></span></div>
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Kari B.http://www.blogger.com/profile/01964189743590493731noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6259090668140165745.post-40797041631790391232015-12-01T06:38:00.000-08:002015-12-01T06:43:53.295-08:00Breathing Through the Chaos<i><b>Life Lately</b></i><br>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">The last few weeks I've said numerous times, "It isn't rainbows, sunshine, and unicorns at my house." Contrary to what some may believe, I do not have it all together. I hired someone to clean my house every other week because I was overwhelmed by the amount of hair balls and dust bunnies in my house. Now, my house is clean for a few hours after my cleaning angel leaves every other week. Before I can even marvel at the sparkling kitchen floor, the cat will throw up or one of the kids will spill something. It never fails. This is life and that's ok. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">I have dabbled in the bandwagon that is running (or trying to run in my case) a business online. It seems everything I learned in college and all of the sales training I had when I actually worked in an office setting are no match for the social media world. Occasionally I'll have some time and a surge of great ideas will flood my mind. I've focused on trying to drive a wedge and set myself apart from others, but let's face it... My sales experience and knowledge of products means nothing when it comes to this stuff. Everyone is selling something these days....EVERYONE. In the last couple of weeks, I've made myself unplug and be less available via social media. I learned it doesn't pay off for me to be so present. I've talked to people, followed up, and invited. I've answered messages and emails within minutes. It doesn't matter though. My heart just isn't in it anymore. It is exhausting scheduling posts, setting up ads (for Facebook to deny by the way), and maintaining a presence just for people to say "oh I didn't know you sold that!". I'm not a pushy sales person. That's not how I was taught to sell. So in the last week or so I have stepped back so I can reevaluate my purpose as far as my business goes. In the end, I feel God will lead me to do something else. I honestly feel the tug from Him each day for me to hang it up. I just can't seem to make myself let go though. I want to help people. I feel like God is wanting to use me in a way where I can do just that, but overwhelming myself with social media posts, accountability groups, [dramatic] competition, and deviating from everything I ever learned about sales just doesn't seem like my calling. at. all. Stay tuned. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Finally. The twins will be ONE on Thursday. I've been wrapped in this wonderful chaos for almost an entire year. I have survived... somewhat. There have been days where I have cried and convinced myself I cannot do this. There have been days when I felt like superwoman and wanted to take on the world with my twins in tow. I've prayed daily for God to just give me the patience and strength I need to be the mom He wants me to be to my 3 precious children. At the end of the day, I know this is what I've always wanted. I know this is the life I hoped and dreamed of for so long. I am a mother. I am a mother to twins who are into everything, refuse to nap at the same time, and put everything in their mouths except for their food. I have a 12 year old who tries my patience. He stays so busy with sports. It is hard for me keep up sometimes. He won't eat his veggies and drinks way too much sweet tea. I am a mother. I am a mother who doesn't shower everyday. My hair is rarely ever fixed. I've learned it's ok to go out in public without a full face of makeup on. Yoga leggings, Under Armor shirts, and Nikes are my daily uniform. I love it, but at the same time I feel so overwhelmed sometimes. My hands are full just like my heart. I'm exhausted, but I'm so blessed. I feel like I'm so unworthy of this life. </span><br>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">I think I'm ready to be a blogger again. I'm not sure what direction I will go in yet, but I think I need this blog as an outlet and as a place to leave my thoughts. More to come on that later... </span><br>
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<br><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEikMwMEnUkzeJS-6o72PgWzscBrpUU0ZGglIdv-BSk0AN2mbNiFoNZVXNavHQ7bR_pUOaan4E0k7GykOWF3qWnlO2VD-YwMGR-W5A2hFB6ecIH73M8EhC8pQBDEvloAFMiPYAnR7uCkR5k/s640/blogger-image--130078098.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEikMwMEnUkzeJS-6o72PgWzscBrpUU0ZGglIdv-BSk0AN2mbNiFoNZVXNavHQ7bR_pUOaan4E0k7GykOWF3qWnlO2VD-YwMGR-W5A2hFB6ecIH73M8EhC8pQBDEvloAFMiPYAnR7uCkR5k/s640/blogger-image--130078098.jpg"></a></div>Kari B.http://www.blogger.com/profile/01964189743590493731noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6259090668140165745.post-36097726804546134102015-11-03T06:41:00.000-08:002015-11-04T08:34:06.709-08:00We are 11 Months Old<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Three years ago, I never would've imagine I would one day be writing a blog update for my 11 month old baby. Today I'm writing a blog update for not one but TWO babies! I'm so grateful for these two little tots. </span><br>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Ryker and Averlee are into everything. EVERY. SINGLE. THING they can get their hands on. Playing in toilets, putting things in their mouths, pulling each others hair, throwing things at each other, chasing Harper (our 3 year old Shi tzu), and trying to "help" unload the dishwasher. There is never a dull moment with these 2. </span><br>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Here are a few pics from their 9 month 1photo session, which was actually a week before they turned 10 months. . . </span><br>
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<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 13.2px; line-height: 18.48px;"><em>Nickname(s):</em> We call him Ry, Ry or Ryker Roo</span><br style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: Arial, Tahoma, Helvetica, FreeSans, sans-serif; font-size: 13.2px; line-height: 18.48px;"><span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 13.2px; line-height: 18.48px;"></span><br style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: Arial, Tahoma, Helvetica, FreeSans, sans-serif; font-size: 13.2px; line-height: 18.48px;"><span style="background-color: white;"><span style="color: #222222; font-family: Verdana;"><span style="font-size: 13.2px; line-height: 18.48px;">Favorite Food(s): He loves bananas, fresh fruit, avocado, grilled cheese sandwiches, yogurt, steamed veggies and basically anything I've given him so far. The child will eat anything. I hope he continues to eat so well! </span></span></span><br>
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<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 13.2px; line-height: 18.48px;"><em>Nickname(s):</em> Averlee Beth, Vee Vee, or AB .... because saying "Averlee Elizabeth!!" 57 times a day is just too hard! </span><br style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: Arial, Tahoma, Helvetica, FreeSans, sans-serif; font-size: 13.2px; line-height: 18.48px;"><span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 13.2px; line-height: 18.48px;"></span><br style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: Arial, Tahoma, Helvetica, FreeSans, sans-serif; font-size: 13.2px; line-height: 18.48px;"><span style="background-color: white;"><span style="color: #222222; font-family: Verdana;"><span style="font-size: 13.2px; line-height: 18.48px;">Favorite Food(s): Gerber Puffs. She's still not sure about all of the table food we have offered to her. She prefers to stick to baby food on a spoon for now. </span></span></span><br>
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<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 13.2px; line-height: 18.48px;"><em>What's She Up To?:</em> Crawling, pulling up, standing, eating, torturing Ryker. Averlee likes to take stuff away from Ryker. If Ryker is playing with his ball, Averlee will take it from him. If Ryker is sipping his cup, she will take it away from him and drink out of it herself. Averlee is into everything. She likes to pull all of the diapers off of the changing table, tear pages out of books, smear food all over her highchair, her face, and her hair. She smiles with her entire face. She does not sleep through the night. We do good for her to sleep 3 hours solid. </span><br>
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<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgUc5prE9Ns1Axj7rCgkAgCOl4wNkgN_AkWS9Ad6AR5RY8s8423nE5vBTR1KhLAAbp3Ye0wn8gXSoiKomSeD7PVS44stw4-OTbD3dAd547ogn6bkx0d80WFYRmCaPNmdDFE4nu5u-bAAN0/s1600/871923fd894be5f8e9c9532917bda7af.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="clear: right; float: right; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-left: 1em;"><img border="0" height="400" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgUc5prE9Ns1Axj7rCgkAgCOl4wNkgN_AkWS9Ad6AR5RY8s8423nE5vBTR1KhLAAbp3Ye0wn8gXSoiKomSeD7PVS44stw4-OTbD3dAd547ogn6bkx0d80WFYRmCaPNmdDFE4nu5u-bAAN0/s400/871923fd894be5f8e9c9532917bda7af.jpg" width="372" /></a><span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">As many of you already know, today is Infant and Pregnancy Loss Awareness Day. As I scrolled through Facebook this morning while enjoying the sliver of silence in my home, I began thinking about my little babies in heaven. I wonder what they would have looked like. I wonder if they were boys or girls. I absolutely cannot wait to get my hands on them one day. I hope they know how much I wanted them here on Earth with me... I hope they know I loved them. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Last week my Wednesday Night Ladies' Class was discussing grief and how people grieve. A few of the ladies were specifically speaking about losing a spouse, parent, or grandparent. As I was listening to their words, I felt the need to share what was on my own heart. Miscarriages. The loss of a pregnancy is something so many people just do not understand. So often friends and family do not know what to say to someone grieving the loss of a pregnancy. Some do not even realize that a grieving process is necessary even for an early pregnancy loss. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Just a few weeks ago I had a sweet, young woman reach out to me. She was telling me about her struggle and how she felt like everyone around her was just brushing her miscarriage under the rug. On the day she reached out to me, she shared her baby would have been due that week. She was having such a hard time. My heart ached for her because I remember that feeling of loneliness. I did my best to reassure her she was not crazy and this was a normal feeling. It is part of the grieving process. I'm so glad God gave me the words to share with this precious girl. I'm glad I was able to help her not feel alone during such an important week. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">So often people do not know what to say or how to act when someone loses a child early in pregnancy. We all know that. Most of us in the infertility world have been there. We have been on the receiving end of some of the things people say. Personally, even though I've been there I still struggle sometimes with what to say to someone. I'm guilty of NOT saying the right things or being fully present when a dear friend needed me the most after her miscarriage. I was in the middle of my whirlwind of an infertility journey, and I just didn't have the right words or know what to do. I admit I'm not a pro when it comes to this stuff even though I've been on the other side of this. I am trying though. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">In late March of 2014 I hit my lowest point. I was grieving the loss of what we had thought was our answered prayer. I was upset. I was so raw and broken. Looking back on <a href="http://bethkari.blogspot.com/2014/04/i-have-no-words.html">that post (you can find it here)</a>, I cringe. I remember trying to find a way to deal with my emotions and disappointment and coming up short. I felt so helpless. Please raise your hand if you've ever lost a loved one and just needed a minute to be real. [raises hand] Please raise your hand if you have ever felt your heart shatter in a million pieces at the news of a loved one dying [raises hand again]. I'm not the only one with my hand raised, am I? We are all humans here, right? I thought so. Losing a pregnancy early, later on, or giving birth to a sleeping baby is still a loss. Let me repeat that for those of you who might be wiping tears.... LOSING A BABY IS A LOSS NO MATTER WHEN IT HAPPENS. Grieving the loss is allowed. Grieving the loss is something a mother HAS TO DO. I do not personally know the pain of losing a child in the 2nd or 3rd trimester, but I have unfortunately witnessed women who have had to endure such pain. I do know the pain of losing a pregnancy early on. I know the excitement of seeing those 2 solid lines .... then a few weeks later bleeding and being told you lost your pregnancy. I know the feeling of wanting something so badly in your heart that it hurts. I know the feeling of wanting your womb to be a safe place for your child to grow so one day you might hold them in your arms. I. know. THAT. pain. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">On this day and every other day, I ask that you remember the Mommies who didn't get to hold their babies and the Mommies who said hello and goodbye in the same breath. Being the Mommy of an angel is not an easy job. </span></div>
Kari B.http://www.blogger.com/profile/01964189743590493731noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6259090668140165745.post-84752561551987926242015-09-26T05:22:00.001-07:002015-09-26T05:22:27.028-07:00An Infertility Journey Does Not End at Birth <span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">A few weeks ago I told my husband how badly I wished we could go out to eat with the twins and nobody interrupt our meal. I said it out of frustration. I didn't really mean it... well maybe I did just a little. R&A have recently fully graduated to high chairs in restaurants, which means they usually sit at the end of the table for all to see versus when we would tuck them away in the booth beside us. Now strangers come over and talk to us while we are either trying to feed the twins quickly before our own food arrives or when we are trying to eat our own food before one of the twins either (a) decides sitting in the high chair is no longer fun or (b) blows out their diaper. One of the two is always inevitable. A couple weeks ago a restaurant employee came over to talk to us. She was telling us about her daughter who has twins and the things her twins do. She then asked the question I despise the most (aside from the "are they identical?" question of course). She asked which one of us had twins in our family. Our response was of course, "No". She then proceeded to argue with me saying, "Well honey, one of you has to have twins in your family." I gave her a blank stare. Exhaled. Then the words just flowed out of my mouth. "Twins do not run in our family. Our twins are miracle babies. We waited two years for them." By that, she thought I meant they were adopted. I was trying so hard to avoid telling our infertility story in the middle of a restaurant. At this point the table beside us was already listening in on the conversation. The restaurant employee wouldn't let it go - or let us finish our meal without her 20 questions. So I told her, "No. They are not adopted. We had to do artificial insemenation." There ya go. In the middle of a restaurant while we were trying to eat and enjoy our time together as a family, I had to share that my husband and I could not have children on our own. All because a restaurant employee obviously couldn't mind her own business. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">I can see how we may have been able to blend into the crowd if had not had twins. People are so fascinated with twins. People ask so many questions. Some are good questions. Some are a little silly. Example: "Are they identical?" Do people even realize what it means to be an identical twin? I believe the first criteria would be for them to be the same gender. Just throwing that out there. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">In March, I was desperate to whip my body back into shape. Desperate with a capital "D". I was doing literally everything I could think of within reason to lose the baby weight. One night while pumping, I stumbled across a health and fitness page on Facebook. I watched as this woman who was currently pregnant did some pretty intense workouts. I wanted to be her. I looked at the videos of her working out while her two kids played in the background. I wanted to be her so bad. I wanted to be in shape so I could be a better mom for my kids. At the current time, I was still wearing maternity pants and shirts even! My kids were three months old and I was still wearing maternity clothes!!! It made me feel so icky. I have ZERO self confidence. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><i>Let me preface the rest of this story by telling you this... before we started fertility treatments, we agreed I would stay at home with the kids. All 3 of them. I wanted to be a full time mommy! </i></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">So I joined a "sneak peek" group and realized there were tons of women just like me out there who also wanted to whip themselves back into shape after having kiddos. I chatted with other twin moms and realized, "Hey! They are doing this too! So can I!" Long story short, a week after joining this group of women, I became a Beachbody coach. My original plan was to just use the sweet 25% discount to get my Shakeology shakes cheaper and I would get a discount on products (programs and equipment if the need came about). Well, as I started losing the weight, people started asking me what I was doing. I gladly told them what I was doing, but didn't really push any sales. I was NOT wanting to become one of those people who turned their social media accounts into a "PLEASE BUY THIS FROM ME" deal. There's nothing wrong with it if you are the type of person who does that sort of thing, but it just wasn't what I wanted to do. I did make an attempt to let people know what I was doing though that way if they happened to want to join me or purchase products, they might think of me before buying off of Amazon or Ebay. Once again... I didn't want to spend a lot of time on this. My goal was to get myself back into shape. Period. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Here I am today though. This afternoon I have no clue where my phone is because my twins crawled away with it when I refilled my water bottle. As earth shattering as that may seem, I'm so relieved I have no idea where it is right now. Aside from me being on my laptop pounding my thoughts out on the keyboard.... I am officially UNPLUGGED. This afternoon I have realized I allowed myself to get sucked into working again. Yeah... its a little business. I'm not raking in the dough, but in the last month I have felt the need to be so present on social media so people will realize, "Hey! Kari sells that stuff I was reading about!" I feel like I have to reply to messages as quickly as possible out of fear I will lose a sale. I stay up late at night scheduling posts for <a href="https://www.facebook.com/Kari-Bell-Health-Fitness-1582763035297775/timeline/">my like page.</a>. I sip coffee while I read up on the latest Beachbody news. I scroll Pinterest during nap times so I can find new and motivating things to post on my page or within my groups so maybe just maybe someone will choose ME as their coach. ON VACATION I STAYED UP LATE ONE NIGHT SENDING EMAILS OUT TO PROSPECTS because it was the end of the month and I was trying to close some sales. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Don't get me wrong. It is fun helping people, but in the grand scheme of things... this isn't where I want to be. I will share my love for health and fitness with whoever asks! I will tell you what I do and what programs have worked for me. If you ask, I'll tell you about the <a href="http://teambeachbody.com/shop/-/shopping?referringRepId=611959">Beachbody products</a>. If you want to start a program with me, I'll gladly shoot you a text each day and we can help hold each other accountable. If you'd like to run with me at the park on Mondays or Tuesdays, I would gladly enjoy your company!! </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">I have twins who are growing quicker than words can explain. I have an almost 12 year old who is involved in sports. I don't shower everyday because I feel like I have no time! My hair is in a messy bun 99.8% of the time. I love the way I feel now physically. I'm healthier than I've ever been. I know how to eat and what to eat. I'm wearing the same size jeans I wore in high school. I'm also losing precious precious time because of my presence on social media... all so I can make some extra money. Money I don't necessarily need. What started out as just a hobby and a way to get a discount on my programs and shakes has totally taken over my day because I have let it. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">So today, Wednesday September 16, 2015 I'm telling you this: I don't have it all together. There are some days I hide in the bathroom just to reply to emails. I ate 5 Oreos last night because I was stress eating. I will not reply as soon as you send me a message. I have no clue where my phone is. I need a shower. </span>Kari B.http://www.blogger.com/profile/01964189743590493731noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6259090668140165745.post-24352996647491600682015-09-09T05:00:00.000-07:002015-09-09T05:00:05.186-07:00We Made It <span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><strong>9 Months </strong></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Verdana;">We made it to 9 months. I'm not going to sugar coat it for you. Being a twin mama has been rough. It's the good kind of rough though. It is challenging but oh so rewarding. Being the mom of a middle school student AND a twin mama while living at least 40 minutes away from family and friends and having a husband who works crazy, long hours and travels.... E</span><span style="font-family: Verdana;">h. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Verdana;">When Trey and I decided I could be a stay at home mom, I had all of these amazing <strike>dreams</strike> ideas of what that would look like. I imagined mornings of sipping coffee while watching my children play in the floor. Afternoons of playing in the yard. Picnics under a tree. Trips to the park. Random shopping trips with friends. Playdates with fellow stay at home moms. Can I be real for a second? When Ryker started crawling, which was probably 2 months ago, I went three days without a shower. You read that correctly. 3 days. No shower. If I haven't showered, I do not want to even think about going out in public. I put make up on once a week to go to church. I strike up conversations with the college kid cashier at the grocery store because I'm that desperate for adult interaction sometimes. My kids have not had a play date because everyone I know who has kids around R&As age either (a) work during the day or (b) live too far away. I do drink coffee in the mornings. I typically have to reheat it at least once because I usually sit it down after I pour it and forget where I left it. After I reheat it, I chug it. There's no time for sipping coffee in the mornings! ha. There are NO random shopping trips with friends. The thought of maneuvering my double stroller through multiple stores by myself is just overwhelming. Even the children's stores are not laid out well enough for a stroller! I do venture to consignment sales, but those are usually in and out real quick. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Verdana;">I'm not complaining. I'm just stating that what I had imagined staying at home would look like is not what staying at home actually looks like. Often family members assume since I do not work outside of the home, that I'm just sitting at home waiting on someone to come visit me. Negative. To be honest, there's not a lot of sitting. . . ever. I'm sitting right now only because the twins are asleep. *Thank you teething tablets!* In two hours I will load up R&A and we will go pick Big Brother up from school. I'll come home, fix dinner, and load everyone back up and we will go to football practice... where I will push the stroller on a walking trail round and round in circles. I love it. I love how I've become so comfortable without make up on. My hair is rarely ever "fixed". I have officially given 95% of myself to taking care of my family. I cannot imagine anything more important than being the best wife and mother I can be to my family. If that means I have to strike up a convo with the grocery store cashier once a week while I'm convincing a little boy to sit in the buggy and not pull his sister's hair... I'm completely ok with that. </span>Kari B.http://www.blogger.com/profile/01964189743590493731noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6259090668140165745.post-58846615702717621882015-09-03T11:05:00.001-07:002015-09-03T11:05:50.264-07:00Family Vacation <p dir="ltr"><b>Oh Hey! </b></p>
<p dir="ltr">The twins celebrated turning 9 months old while soaking up some sun in Orange Beach, Alabama this week. I must admit... I was dreading this vacation. I started packing a week before we left out of fear we would forget something. Needless to say, we did not forget anything, but we did have to run to the closest Walmart at least twice to buy more wipes and diapers! I guess I never realized just how many diapers we go through in a week since I always have a stock pile readily available in our nursery at home. In case you are wondering, the magic # was over 54 . Yes. Two little 9 month olds went through over 54 diapers in just 4 and a half days. </p>
<p dir="ltr">For the most part, we had a wonderful vacation! Ryker and Averlee were so well behaved (for 9 month olds) everywhere we went! Dinner was super easy each evening since we were at the beach during the off season. We walked right in and were seated immediately everywhere we went. Our food came out pretty quickly too which made things so much easier! </p>
<p dir="ltr">The twins also enjoyed having their big brother, Gavin with them all day everyday for 5 days solid! They enjoyed playing in the pool, the splash pad area, on the beach, and in the floor of the condo. Averlee loved playing in the sand more than Ryker. For some reason, Ryker always wanted to curl up under the beach shade and take a nap when we were on the beach. </p>
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☆ baby powder is great for getting sand off of hands and faces. <br>
☆there's no such thing as having too many baby wipes <br>
☆ babies eat sand... and it doesn't kill them. So don't fret when they keep putting their hands in their mouth. It happens. <br>
☆ a wagon is a must! We had a collapsible on we use to haul our stuff at ballgames. It worked great for toting the babies from the condo, to the pool, then to the beach. We had room to put their toys, a small cooler, towels, and our beach bag too. It was a bit of a challenge rolling it in the sand, but totally worth the struggle! </p>
<p dir="ltr">I'll have their official 9 month post up after we make it back home to Tennessee! Happy Thursday! </p>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana;">The last 7 months feel like a complete blur. People say "they'll be grown up before you know it!" Seriously. If it wasn't for my iPhone (which crashed a couple months ago btw), iPad, and our camera, I do not think I would be able to wrap my head around just how far we have come since the days of less than 5lbs, feedings every 2 hours, and the tiny, tiny outfits. They have grown and changed so much! </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Verdana;">Favorite Food(s): Anything on a spoon. Seriously. The kid will eat anything. I have only come across one Gerber baby food he doesn't like and that's peas. I despise peas myself, so I cannot really blame him for not liking them! </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Verdana;">Favorite Food(s): She's a banana gal. We have had a lot of trouble with her super duper sensitive tummy and <a href="http://www.webmd.com/heartburn-gerd/reflux-infants-children">GERD</a> . We have tried introducing baby foods very slowly; however, her poor little tummy just cannot handle much at once. Hence her small size. She does love to eat apples, bananas, peaches, and occasionally she will eat a container of green beans. She enjoys her bottles every 3 hours. We are currently giving her 4oz bottles during the day and a 6oz bottle at bedtime with an itty bitty sprinkle of rice cereal. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana;"><em>What's She Up To?: </em>Averlee has mastered sitting up, reaching for objects, and throwing all of her toys off of her high chair tray and into the floor. She shows no desire to crawl at the moment. She seems more of a "watch and wait" type person. She watches Ryker bounce, scoot, and wiggle all over our living room. She is perfectly content sitting in one spot and playing with whatever she can get her hands on. Also, if there was a baby Olympics, she would be trying out for the swimming team. The girl LOVES to swim in the pool. I've been known to throw her little swim suit on her and get in the pool on days when nothing else seems to make her happy. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana;">I have to say, THIS age has been my favorite so far! I do miss the cuddly, itty bitty newborn stage (just a little), but this age is much more fun. They are each growing into their individual personalities. I can sit them in the floor while I read book after book to them. They babble. They play together. They smile and giggle. I have told my husband numerous times that I wish I could just keep this size forever! </span></div>
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Kari B.http://www.blogger.com/profile/01964189743590493731noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6259090668140165745.post-9878374576653084622015-04-20T08:46:00.001-07:002015-04-20T08:46:27.048-07:00Four Months <span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">We've made it. Ryker and Averlee are four months old! It was only fitting for them to turn four months old on April 3rd. Exactly one year after my first positive pregnancy test that ended up being a false positive. Here we are today. Our prayers were answered in God's time and not our own. I knew that would be the way it would work out all along. I knew God had a plan and I shouldn't question it. I knew that. I had trouble letting go of my own plan though. Today I sit here with messy, unwashed hair... spit up on my shirt... a dirty house... and a full heart. I feel like I could thank God daily for the rest of my life and it will never be enough. I'm so grateful for this experience. I'm so thankful for unanswered prayers that led to these two perfect little miracles. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Verdana;">I also want to add that in the last year, I have been contacted my a number of women who were touched or inspired by our journey. In the last year I have held hands, cried, and prayed with women who are walking a similar path I once walked. My heart aches for them. The pain of infertility is still so fresh in my heart. Everytime someone (often strangers) say, "Oh are they twins? Bless your heart. Your hands are full." I want to jump up and down and explain to them how hard I prayed and how long I fought just to have ONE baby. Don't say "Bless your heart." out of pity for me. I do not need pity! My heart is so full just like my hands. I love every moment of it. I fought hard to have this. There are so many women who would give anything to have just one baby. My heart still aches. Now my heart aches for those women and not myself though. </span><br />
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Kari B.http://www.blogger.com/profile/01964189743590493731noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6259090668140165745.post-4918033152015138022015-02-25T07:57:00.002-08:002015-02-25T08:01:00.773-08:00Remember Me?<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Hello. Hello! </span><br>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana;">Wow. It has been way too long since I have sat down at the computer to write a post. If you are reading this, thanks for sticking around! I have a really good excuse... excuses... for not writing lately. </span><br>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana;">These 2 keep me busy. It has taken us a little while, but I think the 3 of us have finally figured out our daily routine. It was rough for several weeks, and from time to time we do stray from our routine. For the most part, I think they will keep me! </span><br>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana;">I gave it up. I fought hard for nearly 10 weeks. Seriously. There was nothing fun or relaxing about it. It started out rough with my milk not coming in until the babies were almost 5 days old. When it did come in, I was only allowed to pump and take what little amount I had to the NICU for the nurses to mix with the high calorie formula. Before we brought Ryker and Averlee home, my lactation consultant encouraged me to put the twins to breast whenever I felt the time was right. The thing was, I had already begun pumping. I was pumping every 2-3 hours. Since I was pumping, I could keep up with how much milk I was producing and how much the babies were actually eating. Tracking the babies' intake was kinda important since they were preemies and them gaining weight was a really big deal. As time went by and they started needing more and more milk at each feeding, I could not keep up. I was waking up to pump in the middle of the night 2-3 times on top of waking up with newborns. My husband was a wonderful help with giving bottles, but there came a time when I just wanted to sleep. I cut back on my night time pumping to just pumping one breast while I was feeding a bottle to a baby. Once my husband went back to work, pumping during the day became difficult. It seemed everytime I sat down and got all hooked up, one or BOTH babies would start fussing or crying. It isn't easy to hold TWO unhappy babies AND those pump shields! There were many times the babies just had to cry for 15-20 minutes while I pumped. Eventually I purchased a pumping bra that held the pump shields in place for me so my hands would be free to pop a paci in a mouth or shake a rattle. Even with the pumping bra, I was not able to dedicate the time I needed to pumping as often as I needed to, so I started pumping when I had a chance and didn't fret over if it happened every 2 hours or not. I did try nursing the babies at least once a day after they reached 4 weeks old; however, Averlee never would latch on. Averlee also had (still has) awful reflux. It was better for us to give Averlee bottles so we could keep up with just how much we were giving her and how much we thought she was actually keeping down. Ryker would latch, and he would nurse for a good 15-20 minutes; however, he was still hungry after nursing so I would still have to give him a bottle of formula. A couple weeks ago, I had a day where I realized I was rushing through feedings just so I could pump 2oz of breastmilk. That's right. I was only getting 2oz each time I pumped. I was taking the supplements. I was eating like crazy. I was drinking water constantly. I had bought a fancy pump. I had done everything I knew to do. I was still only getting 2oz. Considering Ryker was eating anywhere from 5-6oz every 3 hours and Averlee was eating 3-4oz... me pumping 2oz every 3-4 hours was not cutting it. AT. ALL. So I weighed my options. I talked to my husband about it. I prayed about it. I was so afraid to give it up. I felt like a failure. I just had to keep pushing forward. A couple days later, I pumped first thing in the morning and I only had 1oz. The next time I pumped.... I had less than that. </span><br>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana;">I want you to know, I quit pumping that day. I didn't quit because I decided to. I quit because my milk was gone. I had nothing. I felt a relief that the decision was somehow made for me and I didn't have to make the decision myself. I now have more time to play and cuddle with my little ones. We can actually leave the house and not have to worry about lugging my pump, cooler, and ice pack around with us. We are F-R-E-E. Side note: Now we solely depend on the mail man to deliver our expensive high cal formula every week though! </span><br>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana;">We moved! Yes. My husband and I had the bright idea to buy a house and sell a house all before the babies turned 8 weeks old. WE. ARE. CRAZY. I do not recommend it at all, but we survived! We have been in our new house for almost a month. It really is our dream home! I have a kitchen island and a wrap around porch like I've always wanted. The twins will have their own rooms once they get old enough. I have a workout room. My husband has room to build his machine shop the way he wants it. We are extremely happy in our new home! </span><br>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana;">So there are my excuses! Please forgive me! I hope to be back in the saddle for good sharing the adventures of being a mommy to twins and an 11 year old before too long. Until next time.... </span>Kari B.http://www.blogger.com/profile/01964189743590493731noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6259090668140165745.post-21867314678645589422014-12-23T17:41:00.000-08:002014-12-23T17:41:01.394-08:00Happy Birthday to Ryker and Averlee! Part 2<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">In case you missed Part 1, you can find it <a href="http://bethkari.blogspot.com/2014/12/happy-birthday-to-ryker-and-averlee.html">here! </a></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Verdana;">We had known for a while I would deliver the twins via C-section. I had slowly begun mentally preparing myself for what that would involve; however, I still was not ready. I was not ready to deliver them at 34 weeks. I kept telling Trey, "I'm not ready. They aren't ready. This cannot happen today. They cannot be born today." He just kept smiling and telling me everything would be alright. I think every nurse in the room had to give me a speech about how well I had done to carry twins to 34 weeks. It didn't matter what anyone said at that point. I knew 34 weeks was the very beginning of what we had begun to call "the safe zone". I also knew our babies would be preemies and there was absolutely nothing we could do to prevent it at that moment. Ryker and Averlee were coming even if it wasn't the most ideal situation. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Verdana;">I had less than 45 minutes from the time the nurse told me Dr. Williams had ordered an emergency C-section to the time they were wheeling me down the halls to the operating room. I had no time to think. I had no time to cry. It all happened so fast! As soon as the doors to the OR opened, I looked to my left and saw two bassinets. Two. I remember looking at my nurse and saying, "There's two. I'm having two babies tonight. Two miracles." Tears were rolling down my face. I couldn't decided if I was terrified or if I was overjoyed. Either way, I was ready to meet my babies. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Verdana;">Once they had prepped me for my C-section and started my spinal - because we had NO time for an epidural- they let Trey join me. The room was full of people! I had a team around me. Each bassinet had a team around it. I believe there were two people from the NICU in the room as well. I looked at Trey and told him to pray. I knew there was nothing we could do at this point but pray. So we did. Trey prayed over me as the doctors and nurses pulled, tugged, cut, and pushed on my body. In less than 15 minutes, Dr. Williams said, "I'll have a baby for you in just a minute, Kari!" He did. Ryker was first. The sound of his sweet little scream was absolutely beautiful. Dr. Williams gave me a quick peek of little Ryker before the nurses and doctors swept him away for his evaluation. One minute later, our precious Averlee was born. Apparently Averlee had tied her umbilical cord in a tight knot. It all made sense at that point. If I had not gone into labor when I did, we would not have known Averlee had umbilical cord problems until she was in distress. By the time we figured out she was in distress, it would have been too late. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Verdana;">Shortly after Ryker and Averlee were born, Trey was instructed to follow the nurses to the NICU. I wish I had a picture of his proud face. His face was completely lit up. I was laying on the operating table just praying our babies would be ok, and Trey was beaming from ear to ear with pride. It was everything I had ever dreamt of. That moment seeing his face and hearing our little miracles crying in the background was priceless. I hope I never forget how beautiful of a moment that was.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Verdana;">Ryker and Averlee were admitted to the NICU immediately after their birth. We are grateful they did not require any assistance breathing. They did require IV fluids for a few days, phototherapy for jaundice, and a warmer to help them regulate their own body temps. After a couple days, the nurses "coached" Trey and I on how to get the babies to eat. We took it day by day increasing the amount of formula or breast milk in their bottles. It was frustrating at times because we just wanted to feed our babies without having a nurse timing us, but in the greater picture, we knew we were one step closer to taking them home each time they finished their minimal feed amounts. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Verdana;">On December 11th, Trey and I left the hospital one last time, but this time we left with our two miracle babies. It was almost like a dream leaving the hospital that day. It almost did not seem real. We were leaving the hospital with OUR babies. These two little lives were in our hands. These two lives we had hoped and prayed for over the last two and a half years were now in our hands for us to take home. I could not thank God enough. I was in constant prayer the entire ride home. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Verdana;">Tomorrow Ryker and Averlee will be 3 weeks old. They were worth the wait. Looking into their sweet little faces makes every single failed treatment cycle, negative pregnancy test, heartbreaking test result, set back, roadblock, cancelled cycle, doctor visit, crying fit on the bathroom floor, surgery, blood draw, and injection in the abdomen worth it. They are worth it. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana;">I'm not sure where this blog will go from this point forward, but I hope I'm able to continue documenting this wonderful journey. I hope each and every one of you have a very Merry Christmas. </span></div>
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Kari B.http://www.blogger.com/profile/01964189743590493731noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6259090668140165745.post-57181394765088321592014-12-09T08:34:00.000-08:002014-12-09T08:58:00.111-08:00Happy Birthday to Ryker and Averlee! Part 1<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">On Wednesday, December 3, 2014 at 6:34 and 6:35pm the world became a little sweeter. Ryker Christian Bell and Averlee Elizabeth Bell decided they didn't want to celebrate their birthdays on the day our doctor had scheduled my C-Section. Apparently December 3rd was more appealing to them! Here is their birth story... </span><br>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana;">On Tuesday afternoon, I began tracking contractions. I was having them about 12-15 minutes apart. They weren't awful. They were about as intense as the BH contractions I had been having for almost 10 weeks. As I mentioned in a previous post, I had already spent two nights in the hospital at 30 weeks due to threatened pre-term labor. During that hospital stay I was given two steroid injections to aid the babies' development along with magnesium sulfate to slow/ stop my contractions. Basically, I was tracking contractions on Tuesday but I didn't think anything about it because I felt fetal movement. As far as I knew, I had not </span><span style="font-family: Verdana;">lost my mucus plug and I did not have any bleeding. I assumed I was just having practice contractions. No big deal.</span><br>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana;">Tuesday night I slept all night long. Seriously. I only woke up once to pee. That's a huge deal when you have two tiny humans pressing on your bladder constantly. I woke up Wednesday, took Gavin to school, came home and just laid around until it was time to get ready for my weekly doctor visit. Trey was off work on Wednesday so he could run a few errands before our doctor appointment. When we were getting ready to leave the house, I told Trey I thought I would throw my hospital bag in the car just in case. I asked him if he wanted to put a bag in the car too. He said would just come get his stuff if he needed it. I was thinking we might have another over night stay in the hospital in our near future.... little did I know. </span><br>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana;">We had an ultrasound at 2:00 and a doctor appointment at 3:40. During our ultrasound, I was extremely uncomfortable. I've never wanted to rush through any of my bazillion ultrasounds, but I was completely over this one. I kept having contractions, which led to me having to roll over on my side off of my back. The tech told me Baby A - Ryker- was "very low". She also said Baby B - Averlee- was head down. I knew at this point that our days were numbered... little did I know. </span><br>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana;">When my nurse called my name to go back for my doctor appointment, I asked her if we would be doing a NST. I told her I was having frequent contractions. She said my doctor hadn't ordered one, but she would talk to my doctor and see what he said. When my doctor came in, he did not ask a lot of questions. He told us he was going to send us over to L&D to be checked and hooked up to the monitors. He told us we would probably go home that night, but we just needed to be checked out. </span><div><font face="Verdana"><br></font></div><div><font face="Verdana">So off we went to L&D. We made a few quick phone calls and sent a few texts, but we did not see any reason for everyone to rush to the hospital...little did I know. The time between the moment we got off the elevator on the 3rd floor of the hosptial and the time the twins were born was a complete whirlwind! When I was checked, the nurse started to prepare us mentally that we would be delivering soon. I was already at 5cm and the contractions were becoming stronger and more frequent. Ryker and Averlee were on their way and there was absolutely NO time to waste. Before we could even make a phone call to our parents and close friends, I had a room full of nurses trying to start my IV, draw blood for labs, and prep me for an emergency C-section. . . </font></div><div><font face="Verdana"><br></font></div><div><font face="Verdana">To be continued<br></font>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana;">What a difference a year makes, right? Whenever I think about it, my heart wants to explode with gratefulness and happiness. One year ago I was scheduling our consultation appointment with Nashville Fertility Center. One year ago my OB/GYN looked Trey and I in the eyes and told us he was at the end of his rope. He did not know what else to do, but he was determined not to give up and he didn't want us to give up either. We left his office with a referral to see a specialist at Nashville Fertility Center. My heart was shattered. I was terrified. I was angry. I was so disappointed. </span><br>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana;">Yesterday, the twins and I had our second <a href="http://americanpregnancy.org/prenatal-testing/non-stress-test/">NST (non-stress test). </a> As I was laying in the chair hooked up to all of my monitors, my OB/GYN came in to chat and see how I was doing. He asked, "Have we scheduled your C-Section yet? We need to do that." He told us it would be ideal to do it during week 37. We reminded him week 37 is the week of Christmas. That's fine with me, but I know my doctor has four girls at home. I wanted to make sure HE would be delivering our babies. He left the room for a few minutes. When he came back, he said, "December 26th. That will get you through Christmas with your son and you will be just over 37 weeks then." I was in shock. I was excited. I was scared all at the same time. For the last 30 something weeks I've known I cannot be pregnant forever and eventually my babies would have to come out so we can share them with everyone else, but at the same time... we worked so hard, prayed so hard, and waited so long just to be pregnant. I'm not ready for it to be over. Yes. I'm ready to see their little faces. I'm ready to be able to get out of bed without needing someone to give me a push. I'm ready to not have to worry about my bare belly peeking out from under maternity shirts that are suddenly too small. I'm ready to hold and rock our little miracles. I'm ready to read them stories and see their sweet smiles. I'm ready for all of that! I really am. It just all seems to have flown by to me. I feel like May 9th (the day I cheated and took a HPT before my first beta) was just yesterday. I've met women who have said they felt like they were pregnant forever. Me? I feel like I've only been pregnant for a little while even though it has been a full 33 weeks already. We have a date set for our C-Section. Ryker and Averlee will be here on December 26th unless they decide to choose their own birthday between now and then. This is all so real. My heart is so full and so excited, but I'm scared at the same time. God is trusting us with these two precious little miracle lives. </span><br>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana;">One year ago I never imagined I would be really super pregnant at Thanksgiving this year. I never imagined I would be expecting twins! One year ago I wasn't even sure I would ever carry another child in my womb. I'm carrying two and we have been blessed with a healthy, happy twin pregnancy. I'm so thankful. I'm so humbled. I'm so blessed. God is so good! He heard every single prayer that was sent up on our behalf and He answered those prayers... times two. </span><br>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana;">We have so much to be thankful for this year. I just do not feel like this post does it justice. Words cannot describe how full my heart is this year. </span><br>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana;"></span><br>Kari B.http://www.blogger.com/profile/01964189743590493731noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6259090668140165745.post-35142756368101262622014-11-21T11:56:00.001-08:002014-11-21T11:56:23.064-08:00Stay-at-Home Mom Adventures<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">I feel like I need to document this waiting period in my life. I've officially been a stay at home mom for the last eleven days. The first week was absolutely a whirlwind. I had so many things on my TO DO list that I wanted to get completed. I had somewhere to be and errands to run almost every day. Oh and let's not forget Gavin's brief stomach bug debacle. My first day at home, the school called Gavin's dad to say someone needed to come get him. Since I had resigned from job 30 minutes prior to the phone call, I told Gav's dad I would handle it. So I spent the first day of being a stay at home mom being the nurse to my 11 year old who had the yucky stomach virus. It was actually not that bad! </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Verdana;">Gavin is only here three (and a half...ish) days a week, so I make the most of being his Mommy during that time. I've been able to drop him off at school and pick him up in the afternoons. I'm finally able to help him with homework, cook a REAL dinner for him and Trey each night, and just take time to chat with him. I'm not rushed. I'm not running in the door at 5:45 in the evening completely distraught and frazzled from the day. I honestly feel like I'm finally able to make being Gavin's mom and Trey's wife my #1 priority each day.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Verdana;">This week has been different. I haven't been sleeping well at night at all, so my energy level is not near what it was last week. I have a TO DO list for this week, but I'm not marking things off as quickly. We did finally break down and pay someone to come do a deep clean on our house. That took place on Wednesday and I have decided it was the best decision I ever made. It was such a good idea that we have decided to have someone clean our house bi-weekly from this point forward. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Verdana;">Basically, I talk to my dog all day, do laundry, dishes, and reorganize the nursery. Seriously. I sit in the nursery for almost an hour each morning sipping my peppermint hot tea and rearranging the changing table or closet. I believe this is part of nesting, maybe? Whatever it is, I cannot wait to walk into that room each morning and be greeted by two little miracle babies who need me. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Verdana;">Prayer Request: if you could please remember my fellow blogger friend and TTC sister, <a href="http://babyridleybump.blogspot.com/2014/11/bfn-yet-again.html">Elana @ baby Ridley bump</a> that would be wonderful. She has been fighting with every ounce of her being to receive her own miracle baby. She was a wonderful inspiration to me during my sad and dark days. She has always had words of encouragement for me and this week she needs all of the prayers, encouragement, positive vibes, love...whatever you can offer her. Infertility stinks.</span>Kari B.http://www.blogger.com/profile/01964189743590493731noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6259090668140165745.post-58642707461357479562014-11-17T07:20:00.001-08:002014-11-17T07:24:10.812-08:00Bumpdate - 32 Weeks<span style="background-color: white; line-height: 18.2px;"><span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="color: black;"><strong></strong></span></span></span><br>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="color: black;"><strong>Movement: </strong>They BOTH had the hiccups last night during Sunday Evening Worship. It was the most insane feeling. Other than the hiccups, their punches and kicks are super strong now! Gavin got down next to my belly last night to "chat" with Averlee. She punched or kicked SO hard you could see the bump on my belly. She cannot wait to get out and see her big brother I think! </span></span></div>
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<span style="color: black; font-family: Arial;"><strong>What I'm Looking Forward To:</strong> My 32w checkup with the Nurse Practitioner on Wednesday and my Non-Stress Test! I cannot wait to hear their little hearts racing. We will cross our fingers and say our prayers that we avoid any hospital stays this week! </span></div>
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<span style="color: black; font-family: Arial;">I forgot to have someone take my bump picture yesterday, so I'll leave you with a few pics of our unfinished nursery! </span></div><div class="post-body entry-content" itemprop="description articleBody" style="background-color: white; color: #666666; font-family: "Trebuchet MS", Trebuchet, sans-serif; line-height: 18.2px;"><span style="color: black; font-family: Arial;"><br></span></div><div class="post-body entry-content" itemprop="description articleBody" style="background-color: white; color: #666666; font-family: "Trebuchet MS", Trebuchet, sans-serif; line-height: 18.2px;"><span style="color: black; font-family: Arial;"><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgf2mqHZ1OpqGpyaln1mntjSISrEezikt3PmuQtHgnaiFyLwMFYT8PrSJ4N47pqaWVWLQPY-J-5HbilXug17oKdO9HtU78yuywrlCzVt80kQ4JrZNuqmxvZY_UnLq2MxVy4-QQj6Y0yWXc/s640/blogger-image-1508366731.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgf2mqHZ1OpqGpyaln1mntjSISrEezikt3PmuQtHgnaiFyLwMFYT8PrSJ4N47pqaWVWLQPY-J-5HbilXug17oKdO9HtU78yuywrlCzVt80kQ4JrZNuqmxvZY_UnLq2MxVy4-QQj6Y0yWXc/s640/blogger-image-1508366731.jpg"></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgL6ODIlNkOGPtljm4zKIdsx19pthquQxymygk_Wdlo5zGhPajZVeXmKYjaAEbHixe2dvCzku6dRwX4qi87Ev5m7qCELIB9Lip-BXErQnl5suZlUYiS8Iq1ySihEdoX_yszKxqt565ETv4/s640/blogger-image-123491648.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgL6ODIlNkOGPtljm4zKIdsx19pthquQxymygk_Wdlo5zGhPajZVeXmKYjaAEbHixe2dvCzku6dRwX4qi87Ev5m7qCELIB9Lip-BXErQnl5suZlUYiS8Iq1ySihEdoX_yszKxqt565ETv4/s640/blogger-image-123491648.jpg"></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj3r3RK5zm6i0ZHFHw8u-eKiLt0gZh9XekHehBCQU2VhGqETI-GnTrIvDcsyEWeplfBw8gXpeeA_vuzin5CbdmdZh_jsGNOIdjKkJra9FNkauogr-QH9R7FE31tq2DcWHAFbun29pmnDJU/s640/blogger-image--1942498196.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj3r3RK5zm6i0ZHFHw8u-eKiLt0gZh9XekHehBCQU2VhGqETI-GnTrIvDcsyEWeplfBw8gXpeeA_vuzin5CbdmdZh_jsGNOIdjKkJra9FNkauogr-QH9R7FE31tq2DcWHAFbun29pmnDJU/s640/blogger-image--1942498196.jpg"></a></div><br></span></div>
Kari B.http://www.blogger.com/profile/01964189743590493731noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6259090668140165745.post-10595179925467768832014-11-16T11:53:00.001-08:002014-11-16T12:00:59.517-08:00Dear Babies:<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Dear Ryker and Averlee: </span><br>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana;">Here we are. Two years ago you were just a dream to your Daddy and me. We prayed and prayed and prayed for you for over two years. God gave us you when the time was finally right. His plan for your lives is so beautiful. You two have already touched so many lives. It is just beautiful! I hope to tell you about it when you are older. </span><br>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana;">Thirty-two weeks ago our dream finally came true. Your Daddy and I are so excited to meet both of you! Personally, I've enjoyed all of the time I've spent with the two of you already. I have loved all of your kicks, flips, jabs, and high fives. Averlee, you've kept us on our toes at every ultrasound. We never know where you will be, what you will be doing, or which direction you will be facing. We can always count on you to have your hands beside your face though! Ryker, you've been the calm one on ultrasound days. I guess you do not have much room to move around when your sister is putting on her little shows, right? You both like to be very still when you know your Daddy is trying to feel you kick. You little stinkers!</span><br>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana;">As we patiently await your arrival, I keep thinking of things I cannot wait to do with you! I cannot wait to hold you both for the first time and tell you all about all of the wonderful people who prayed for you for so long. I cannot wait to feed you both. I cannot wait to see your Big Brother holding both of you. *Oh my heart*.... all of my babies together finally! What a blessing! I cannot wait to rock you both to sleep, dry your tears, and kiss your little cheeks. Averlee and Ryker, I have waited for what feels like forever to be your Mommy. I hope I do a good job. I hope you always know how much your Daddy, big brother, and I love you. I hope you know you wouldn't be my babies if it hadn't been for God. I cannot wait to teach you about your Heavenly Father and watch you both grow to know and love God. I look forward to watching you both achieve milestones together. I look forward to witnessing how much you two love each other. I have given up a paycheck, fancy clothes, high heels, Excel spreadsheets, reports, and bonuses so I can experience your dirty diapers, feeding you, holding you when you are sick, watching you take your first steps, hearing you speak your first words, and rocking you. Honestly, I think I made the best choice ever. I have chosen to be a full time Mommy to both of you and your Big Brother because it is all my heart desires. I just want to be your Mommy. I hope and pray with every ounce of my being I do a good job. </span><br>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana;"><strong>Ryker</strong>, your big brother cannot wait to teach you how to play ball! He already has a mini basketball picked out for you. Your Daddy cannot wait to teach you how to use your toy hammer, hunt, fish, and take things apart. You'll learn quickly that your Daddy is full of knowledge about so many things. I cannot wait to see what he teaches you! I'm sure you will spend a lot of time with him in his shop, learning how to "fix" things. You'll be your Daddy's little sidekick I bet! </span><br>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana;"><strong>Averlee</strong>, your big brother plans to teach you how to play ball too! You're going to be one well rounded little girl with two brothers! Don't worry, if you ever feel like being a girlie girl, Mommy is here for you! We can have girls day out and paint our nails if you want to. Big brother has taught me how play ball too though, so if you want me to play ball with you and your brothers in the yard, we can do that too! I'm sure your Daddy will take you hunting and fishing if you want to go too! I bet he even tells you the story about the day I slept on the ground while he hunted. It is probably one of his favorite stories! You'll have your Daddy wrapped around your little finger before you know it. I bet if you want to have a tea party, he will join you! </span><br>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana;">I cannot believe you will both be here in just a few weeks. Finally. Your Daddy and I cannot wait to meet you. Oh I cannot wait to see the look on your Daddy's face when he holds you! I cannot wait for you to meet him! Your Daddy is my best friend. I love him more today than I did yesterday. He has worked so hard to make sure our home is just perfect for both of you. He is so excited! I will always remember the look on his face the night I told him he was finally a Daddy. Averlee, I hope your future husband loves you and looks at you the way your Daddy does me. Ryker, I hope you love and laugh with your future wife the way your Daddy does me. You're both so blessed to have such a special man as your Daddy. </span><br>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana;">I can't write you this letter without telling you about your Big Brother! He is so excited to meet both of you! Your brother has the biggest heart and is so full of patience. He held my hair when I was sick during my first few weeks as your Mommy. He has rubbed my back when you were in my ribs, Ryker! He has held my belly and felt you kick and wiggle, Averlee! He will be an amazing big brother. I hope you know you can always go to him if you need anything. I hope all three of you know how special and how important you are to me. God chose me to be your Mommy and that is not something I take lightly. Your big brother is smart too and oh so kind. I know if you ever need anything, he will be sure to take care of you! </span><br>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana;">I love you more than words can describe. Keep growing, my little miracles. I'll see you in a few weeks. </span><br>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana;">Love, </span><br>
<span style="font-family: Verdana;">Mommy </span><br>
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